No pictures this entry. No pictures for CNY entry this year as well....
I don't have a good feeling to celebrate CNY this year. Ba is not even 100 days yet leaving us. The memory of Ba is still here. Everytime CNY, Ba will be the liveliest person in the family. Though Mommy is the Chinese one, but Ba loves Mommy's family as much as he loves all of us.
So, we started quite late this year. Usually as early as 10.00 am we will surely be at Uncle Ah Huat's house, but this year, it's late afternoon. Besides, it's Friday..so after Friday prayer we went to Auntie Nyaros' house. Stay there for a while and chat with Danny's new bride. Then, meet Ah Teng after several years didn't meet her. Her daughter is 3 years old already with a beautiful face just like the mother.
After that, we went to Kuala Sungai Baru and visited Grandpa Ah Heng with Grandma Em Chi. Grandpa was so sad. Both of them keep on talking about Ba. Mommy's siblings also keep on talking about Ba. Reminiscing the moments when Ba was still around.
Usually Ba will always be the 'keypochi' one. 1 miles before entering any house, he will shout , "Auntie, Uncle...Happy New Year..!!!" And everybody will smile broadly and start talking just like in a pasar.
But this year, it's all very quiet. The other grandma with a gold teeth in which we discreetly call her "Nenek Sumbi' was the saddest ever. She loves Ba dearie. She is old and not able to walk properly anymore, thus she didn't attend Ba's last day at home. We came, and she started asking questions. Her children and grandchildren all sat quietly listening to our narrative story about Ba's condition.
And she keeps on saying "Siannn dia. Baiikkk orangnya. Siannnn dia..."
And I cried silently. Tears started to flow down my cheeks and I can feel a big lump choking my throat.
Well.... that was it. Things are not the same without him anymore....